everlasting mmmbopper

2005-08-21T16:39:00.000+01:00

hi...ok not in an updating mood. but u want to see my new baby????? shes so cute!

and heres me sitting in my car!!

haha ive managed to do almost 150 miles since friday...so thats like 2 1/2 days!!! hahaha its so much fun just driving around for no reason!!!

anyway just a quick update!!!

2005-08-15T10:20:00.000+01:00

ok..so 1 month ... no posts....sorry!...but im about to make it up big time!

ok so so much has happened in the last month....most of it good. but everything good thats happened may just have been turned around this morning by the fact that my best friend may never speak to me again!

i'll start with the good. finally got offered a job, which (fingers crossed) i start a week today...and im sooooooo nervous about it! i actually feel sick every time i think about it! the night before i had my interview i also got 5 numbers in the lottery and won £2,230 so i had enough money to go and buy myself a little car!

so yesterday i went with dad to look at cars...and i bough a little blue peugot 206...its really cute. its got cd player, air conditioning, electric windows...all that stuff. and i had a test drive in it and its really really nice. that's kind of it below...same car but i got the 3 door version not the 5 door.

so i pick it up on friday! and i cant wait. but everything was going so well for a change and everything was cool until this morning. and i guess i have to mention the whole story to explain what happened. its all my fault...and theres nothing i can do to change it...but i cant believe ive been so stupid. the one person in the world who is my best friend that i care most about, the one person in the world that i can actually talk to about stuff....must hate me right now!

basically a couple of weeks ago, stuff kinda happened between me and this guy. which would be ok...apart from the fact that this guy is my best friends ex...who i think she still likes a lot. i dont think anythings still going on with them and shes been on other dates on stuff....but its still somewhere i guess i should never have gone. it kinda happened before i knew it had and by then i guess i couldnt change it. i do like the guy and hes really nice...but theres no way in the world i want to lose my friend. i'd kinda been saying all along that we need to tell my mate what had happened...and he sort of agreed but before we did he went away on holiday for 2 weeks. and while he was away i came so close to telling her a few times..but decided i couldnt and it wouldnt have been fair to do that if he wasnt here to tell his side. so i didnt. then this morning i got a txt saying basically that she knew what had happened. and from what i gather hes just used everything that happened against her cos they were having an argument...and that really sucks. yes i wanted to tell her what happened...cos she deserved to know...but i didnt want her to find out like that. now i wish id told her a couple of weeks ago when i had the chance!

i know its all my fault...and i know that all anyone is going to say is that i shouldnt have done anything...and if i had i should have told her straight away, and i know that! but now its a case of whats done is done...and ive got no idea how i can try and explain stuff to my friend. im so sure she's never gonna want to talk to me again! and i deserve that...but i dont know what im gonna do if she doesnt. she seriously is my best friend in the world...shes the only person i know i can trust to tell stuff to...and i guess i should have told her this. and i think thats mostly what she's pissed off about is that she was never told! as well as what actually happened.

im gonna have to try and contact her and tell her everything, and just hope that she will forgive me for everything eventually.

anyway...thats most of whats happened since i wrote last...promise i wont leave it as long this time

2005-07-15T21:53:00.000+01:00

everything is just sooo FUCKED UP!!!! i'm knackered....still exhausted from t in the park weekend..been working loads this week.....got major MAJOR MAJOR guy problems which i have no idea how to work out and i may have fucked up completely! apart from that life is great. im not gonna go into the guy probs (dont want people who know me to know what i'm thinking and give me hassle) ... lets just say life sucks!

anyway t in the park was great. went thru to edinburgh on friday...to stay with emma and ross...went to t in the park on sat and sun (highlights have to be GREENDAY-fucking amazing set, keane, travis, foo fighters, embrace, killers, umm me and emma 'phoebe running' for the bus..hahaha...umm and actually paying money to breath in oxygen in one of those really weird oxygen bars....did no good whatsoever except nipping my nose and eyes...waste of money)...staying up most nights drinking or watching dvds....slept most of monday. got home about half 12 on tuesday morning...had to work on tuesday then had my interview straight from work...i was exhausted but interview seemed to go quite well. dont know when i'll hear.

anyway like i said been working so much over last week...total shock to my system of sitting doing nothing all day..lol was looking forward to a relaxing weekend..but somehow i'm working saturday..then babysitting brothers kids sat afternoon...then going out with lou and rax sat night...then poss going thru to edinburgh on sunday and staying till monday...then going to my aunts on monday night cos i'm babysitting my cousins on tuesday..then back to work on wednesday..guess i'll need to catch up on sleep another time..hehe

anyway...thats all so i'm off. later x

2005-07-07T16:52:00.000+01:00

sorry its been so long since ive posted anything!! i was gonna try to do an update of whats happened but it doesnt seem worth it any more. all i can think about is the terrorist attacks on london which have been on the news all day!! 4 explosions took place...3 in the underground and 1 on a bus. the pictures are horrible. i think the last i heard there were at least 33 dead and hundreds injured. this week with the g8 summit and everything should have been about the millions of people attending the live8 concerts and protesting in a peaceful way to change the world for the better and instead its going to dominated by this. my best friend and her husband live in london and work near there and i havent heard if she is ok. phone lines have been down. i text her but havent heard anything back. im just crossing my fingers that everything is ok.

apart from that ive had the house to myself all week cos my mum and dad are on holiday..and already the house is a mess and there are no clean glasses left to use...lol. guess i have to do some cleaning. i'm leaving for edinburgh tomorrow (hope all the g8 protestors and riots and everything has gone and doesnt affect my weekend) then i'm heading up to "t in the park" on saturday (http://www.tinthepark.com/lineup05.html) looks good....i cant wait!

umm...what else has been happening. oh yeah i had a job interview for a place in saltcoats (by the sea on the south west coast of scotland) last week but i just heard yesterday that i didnt get it. which SUCKED! cos i was starting to think that i was gonna have to go down to england to get a job...which i really dont want to do!! but then i got a phonecall today. i sent out a bunch of cvs a few weeks ago on the off chance that somewhere would come up. and i got a call today from one place saying that they wanted me to go down for an interview on tuesday!! they havent advertised yet so i'm the only one getting interviewed..i guess theyll decide after the interview whether to advertise the position or not. it sounds ideal. it would mean workign 1 night in 4 on call but i guess its better than having to move hundreds of miles away cos its only 20 mins from my house!!!

anyway that will do for just now. i'll update again when i get back from t in the park..let u know how amazing it was

2005-06-08T13:44:00.000+01:00

yumm....how hot is he!!!!!

2005-06-07T14:20:00.000+01:00

k so i havent updated in a long time....so thought i'd write a little update. i've not been up to much recently.

saturday i went to see my brother and the kids...we took my gran over cos she hadnt seen the baby yet. it was really fun..he's so so so cute. i really want a baby now..lol every time i go there i come back wanting a baby..lol i'm guessing i have a long time to wait yet! anyway i took lots of pics but i wont bore u with them all so i'll just post one (excuse the fact i look like shit in the photo).

so then sat night i went to the cinema with lou to see "house of wax" it was really gory and actually kinda scary...lol. it was good tho. then afterwards...were supposed to be going out for a couple of drinks but not staying out late cos lou had work to do neext day but i figured she wouldnt want to go to walkabout since last time we were there she hated it. so i didnt say anything but she was like oh lets just head to walkabout...so i didnt argue.lol. it was such a fun night. we got quite drunk and decided to see how many guys we could get free drinks out of...was sooooooooo funny..but meant we were getting annoyed by all these guys who thought they were gonna get more than chat all night..hahah oh well...we had fun anyway. then nathan (hot barman) made us nice cocktails and at least he actually was nice to me so that made my night.lol amn't i just so sad. then i spent the last half an hr with one of the other barmen trying to teach me how to flick beer tops...hahaha was such a funny night. i ended up spending all my money so i had no money for a taxi home..lol i had to wander round glasgow at almost 4 in the morning trying to find a cash machine.hehe.

oh well so that was my weekend. was such a funny night..i think lou was just happy i wasnt obsessing over certain boys!!

anyway dont have much more to add...later x

2005-05-28T19:48:00.000+01:00

HEY..i'm back!!!!

ok had such a horrible stressful week!!! my computer broke....and we had to get a new hard drive..so basically ive lost almost all my music and videos and hanson pics!!!!!! like all the ones i took at the last concert!!!!

its sort of working now..and i had some stuff saved on disk...but i was having major internet withdrawals from chatting to all my friends on here...so dont worry i wasnt ignoring u and i didnt die...i just broke my computer!

i'll update properly tomorrow!! bye xx

2005-05-20T19:38:00.000+01:00

me and my baby!!!!! shes so fat...but shes cuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuteee!!!!

2005-05-17T20:05:00.000+01:00

ok i'm thinking we need some pictures to cheer us up here. whats better to put a smile on ur face than some nice zaccy pics!!!! i think this is one of the cutest pics of zac there is!!!

2005-05-17T20:03:00.000+01:00

'as i got older i got better' i'm loving all of his shirts!

2005-05-17T20:02:00.000+01:00

yes he does!!! i love that shirt!

2005-05-17T20:00:00.000+01:00

"on the tightrope...the goal is quite clear...don't lose yourself in your fea-ea-ear!"

2005-05-17T15:45:00.000+01:00

mood: crying.....almost
listening to: me complaining

ok...so major major boy problems. dad had a meeting at work today, so i decided to go in with him and go shopping for an hr while he had his meeting. so i was looking for baby clothes for alec. and decided i would go to the shop where nathan works as well just to pop by....since i hadnt seen him in 3 weeks. so i walked in and he was standing just inside the door...doing some work stuff. and he saw me and kind of looked away but as i passed him he turned to smile and i just ignored him and walked over to the clothes...i dont know why!!!!! then i was looking around for a new top but couldnt see anything...so i went to leave and as i came down the stairs he had just walked across the bottom of the stairs...and he turned round and smiled over (i could see him out the corner of my eye) and again i just ignored him. i cant explain it!! it was the perfect opportunity to say hi and have a chat...and i ignored him and left. then one more time when i was heading home i was on the phone to emma (telling her how stupid id been) and i passed by the door of the shop and he was there and we met eye contact and i couldnt say hi either cos i was on the phone. im soo annoyed that i didnt do anything!!!! i cant explain it either.

i was trying to think why i had done what i had....and all i can think of is that last time i saw him i was with john...and lou told him that i liked him (and we were kinda drunk) and i guess i just didnt want to hassle him and i was a little bit embarassed. i dont know...maybe thats not why.....i just wish i could go back in time!!! i dont know when ill see him next..but i really have to chat to him then.

i still cant believe it tho...it was the first time in ages that it was just him and me....and i didnt even say hi!! i could kill myself now...why cant i go back in time!!!! but he was actually smiling over .. like trying to get my attention. whats worse is i still dont know what he thinks. for all i know he could jsut think im the annoying girl who tries to chat to him every so often...or he could feel the same way i do (highly unlikely!!) but i just wish i knew so i could get on with my life....cos right now its all i can think of..and everywhere i turn i can see his most amazing smile!!!

maybe i was just playing hard to get...lol!!! ok maybe not...but he must think im such an idiot!!!!!!

2005-05-16T08:51:00.000+01:00

heres alec...my new baby nephew...isnt he just absolutely adorable!!!! hes only a couple of hours old there! they got home from hospital on thursday and everything is doing well!!!! hes just so so cute......i want one!!!!!! lol

2005-05-10T15:04:00.000+01:00

mood: bored....as always
listening to: nothing (???)

hey....ok so i did it. i let john know that i didnt want anything else to happen. only i chickened out doing it in person. i thought if i phoned him to arrange to meet up then it would give him the wrong idea...and since i hadnt really spoken to him in a few days. i did it by phone. well text actually. u see he had txt me to see if i'd wanted to go out a few days ago...so i just replied (eventually) saying that i didnt really want to meet up and that i would see him around...and some other stuff. i kinda feel relieved that i did it....but he never replied to it....and now i really feel that i want to see him again??!?!?!?! how crazy am i??

and since my friend who i usually go out with is refusing to go to the place where nathan works...i guess i'll never get to see him. nothing was ever gonna happen anyway. but like i spent all saturday night going to pubs that she wanted to and that i hated...and she refuses to do the same for me!!!! i know i just sound like a spoiled child...but i cant help it if i have a major crush on this guy and actually would like to be in the same room as him?!?!?!?!

anyway.....so i was working full time last couple of weeks (which is why there have been hardly any updates or photos or stuff) but at least i get lots of money for doing it....but i just bought a new digital camera on my credit card ... hehehe so when i get paid, i got to pay that off!!! back to part time now tho...so way too much time on my hands!!!

anyway..i'll update again soon....still no baby!!!!

2005-05-03T14:25:00.000+01:00

mood: excited
listening to: h.net member kit!!!

ok this has been the most exciting day!!!! so i got home from work this afternoon (which is so dull and boring, fyi!!) and found that my h.net membership kit had come. the nicest songs and the funniest vid in the world!!! sooo worth the wait!! then my new trainers arrived!!! (i do actually have about 10 pairs...but i always get excited at getting new trainers!!) then my mum phoned to say that gillian is in labour!!! so hopefully over the next day i'm gonna become an aunt again!!!!! YAY!!!!!!!!! i'm so excited!1

ok this was just a short update. i'm still no further forward with the guy situation but i sorted stuff out with lou!!! we had a girly heart to heart and everything seems cool!!

anyway..i'll let u know when baby is born!!!!!

2005-04-24T13:39:00.000+01:00

mood: i shouldnt really put this ..i'm always pissed off
listening to: nothing...got sore head

ugghhh...help. i'm such an idiot!!! i dunno wot to do. ok so last wk i pulled this guy john. and i said all that already. well he txt me yesterday during the day saying did i want to go out for drinks at some point. but me being me didnt reply...cos i dont really want anything to happen. well then i went out with louisa and we went to walkabout and it was quite quiet compared to normal...and the first person i saw was john. (and nathan!!) i didnt go over to chat to him but we were dancing and as we went to go upstairs he grabbed my arm and started chatting to me and kept asking why i hadnt replied to his txt and that it was so rude!! he was laughing a bit so i think he was joking but i felt so crap!!! anyway we ended up kissing and stuff but i still dont want anything more to happen, and he really does!!!! ugh i dont know wot to do. hes nice (and hes australian :-p ) but i dunno.

then to make it worse..i was pissing lou off by going on about nathan so when we were at the bar..and quite drunk by this time...she just turns round to him and says "ok i have ot know if ur single or not cos my friend is really pissing me off now" and i was like OMG SHUT UP!!!!!!! so i jsut grabbed him and i was like really please please please ignore everything my friend said. and he just laughed (i think he just thought we were to silly drunk girls..oh wait ... we were!!) but then between that and the fact he saw me with john most of the night ... i have NO chance with Nathan now ... i know it. and it sucks BIG TIME!!!

and now i also have to work things out with John. i told him i was working the next 2 wks (which is true..i am and i dont finish till about 7 so i cant really do much) but he was like...yeah i want to cook dinner for u this wk...and part of me was like omg u are so sweet and the other part was like..u dont like him and u'll just be wishing he was nathan and thats not fair (and also i'm sure he had more than dinner planned!!!!). urgh...ideas please anyone????? am i that horrible a person??

oh and i can tget my chatterbox to work so

anonymous - i really dont know who u are...lol...any clues????

joy - not sure if i remember who u are?? my e-mail is yelsel_2002@hotmail.com

2005-04-21T01:24:00.000+01:00

Congratulations Tay and Natalie!!!

Taylor and Natalie had a little girl yesterday (19/4/05). Penelope Hanson...i wonder if they'll shorten it to Penny!!!!

Congratulations to both of them and the big brother Ezra!!!!

2005-04-21T01:20:00.000+01:00

Tay and Ezra!!!

2005-04-18T13:33:00.000+01:00

mood: dreading step aerobics tonight
listening to: go...i just loooooooove that song

hey, first i want to say thanks to all my friends who i've been venting to for the last couple of days. u guys are the best and always make me feel so much better when i'm feeling down. i'm not gonna go into everything here cos i'm sure not every1 wants to read all this stuff!! but basically most of it is to do with guys just now. i still haven't worked out why they have to make our lives such a misery and mess with our heads. i'm still nowhere near getting over Nathan but instead of doing something about that, I somehow thought it would be a better idea to pull another random guy on saturday night (who also happens to be australian..i'm not really sure wot it is about me and australian guys????) so now my head is totally confused and i dont know how i feel about anything any more. i'm hoping that one day i'll wake up and suddenly that horrible feeling will have gone from the bottom of my stomach, and my head will be clear and suddenly everything will be ok again. i'm still waiting for that day tho.

oh and the reason why i'm dreading step aerobics tonight.....when i was there last week i pulled something in my left knee. it kinda got better but i hurt it again getting out a car during the week so i've had it strapped up for a couple of days. then i had the great idea that i wanted to wear my boots on saturday night so i put a bandage on my knee and took some painkillers before i left so that i wouldnt feel it if it was sore...lol. sooooo not the best idea but i dont seem to have made it any worse. well today it seems better in that i can walk on it ok but its still a bit sore going up and down stairs and if im getting up from sitting down. but i really cant miss step aerobics cos i go with my friend lou and i need to know how her date thing went last thursday i think it was..but i havent seen her since then and she wouldnt tell me over the phone for some reason so i got to chat to her tonight!!! so i really have to go..but i know im gonna end up damaging my knee again. i might mention to the instructor and see wot she says...i think if i just lower my step so i make it less strain on my knee it should be ok. anyway fingers crossed i dont cripple myself again...lol.

2005-04-12T22:55:00.000+01:00

look at zacs hair!!!!!!!!!

2005-04-12T22:51:00.000+01:00

Mood: grrrrrrrrrrr
Listening to: simple plan - untitled

ugh..ive just had the worst day. u know when u wake up in the morning and wonder why you are actually here...i dont want to get all philosophical but it just seems that there is no purpose in life. every1 around me gets everything they wish for in life...and there are only 3 things i really want in the whole world.....and im no closer to getting either of them!!! it sucks!

to make it worse my friends are really bugging me...well lou in particular. she just thinks she knows me and why i'm doing things but she has no idea. i asked her to come shopping with me on thursday and even that turned into an argument. basically she accused me of only going into glasgow to shop cos nathan works in one of the shops i like....maybe i'm going shopping cos i really need to get stuff to wear for next week and i'm going to glasgow cos its the only fucking place near where i stay that has shops!! then whe i got pissed at her she then comes to ask why im being so quiet...and that i seemed depressed??!?!?!! what the hell am i supposed to say to that. anyway....spent all day bitching to my other pal emma bout it!!!! so we're gonna have a girly night out on saturday...just me, em and sarah (and not lou) so lets hope we can have a drama free night for a change. the last 3 nights ive gone out with lou we've ended up arguing...usually over nothing. i hate it!!!

on a happier note...me and mum spent all yesterday shopping for baby stuff. we got loads of like creams and lotions and baby powder and bath stuff....and dummies and sleepsuits and bibs and stuff like that (for my brother and sister-in-laws baby...which is due in the next couple of weeks). i know its gonna be a boy cos she was in hospital last week cos she thought she was in labour and she was having contractions and other stuff which im not gonna go into...but luckily that all stopped (cos shes still got 5 wks to go). she had a scan when she was in so at least we know wot colour to get!!! i cant wait...but its made me really really want a baby. more than i ever have done. i cant explain the feeling but i just really wish i could be married so i could have a kid!!!!! i freaked my mum out by telling her this..lol!!!

anyway, ill update again later xx

2005-04-12T22:44:00.000+01:00

"teach your children" for some reason this pose round the mic always reminds me of the bee gees!!!!!

2005-04-12T22:42:00.000+01:00

i love this pic!!!

2005-04-04T12:03:00.000+01:00

Mood: better now
Listening to: Someone - Isaac Hanson and Emma Daumas

hey so i've been away for a couple of days so thought i'd do a little update!!! umm...saturday night i was at my little cousins engagement party. it was a good laugh, but i was v v drunk and i swear it wasn't my fault. lets just say that after like an hour i'd had about 5 drinks (vodka, lemonade, lime) which i'm pretty sure i would be able to handle....its not that much!!!! then i realise that the bar are serving double measures ... so really i'd had 10 vodkas in an hr...not so good!!! so um yeah by the end of the night i was pretty pissed...all good fun tho. then i went back to my cousins house with a few other people and drank some more (and i put on Hanson...yay!!!) then i just stayed the night cos its miles from where i live. in the morning i had to get up quite early cos my cousin had to pick up her son from the babysitter. i felt awful when i got up....u know the feeling where every time u move ur head u go really dizzy and almost fall down and i felt like i was gonna throw up.....alcohol is evil...never drink it. so i got up and drank about 10 litres of juice..lol and it made me feel worse cos now i had all this juice rattling around in my stomach!! so we picked up her son (who is 9 months old and so so so cute) and went to visit my aunt and uncle.

i got my dad to pick me up and bring me home cos no way could i handle 2 bus journeys. once i got home i had some food and went to bed and luckily felt a bit better when i woke up!!! then for dinner last night i went out to this new indian restaurant near me with louisa and raakhi. it was really nice until louisa decided to try some of raakhis korma without realising it had nuts in it and shes allergic to nuts!!!! so she ran to the bathroom and was sick and when she came back her lips had swollen up!! luckily she doesnt get the allergy as bad as some people..so she doesnt like stop breathing or anything! but she couldnt eat the rest of her dinner so she took it home with her..lol we had different pakoras for starter, then i had a chicken tikka kashmiri masala....i think. basicaly it was chicken and mango...in a kinda creamy fruity sauce..not too hot. then i had lemon sorbet!! nice.

it was such a funny night cos one of the waiters (who fyi...was about 30 or something and not attractive) was giving us chat all night...it was so funny!!! at the end he kept brining us chocolates and lollipops!! he was quite sweet but i reckon he thought we would like him that way or something...he he he. then this guy from another table walked past..and he was laughing and in a really loud voice he goes "hey...u never spent that much time at OUR table" to the waiter and the waiter was like "well do u blame me...hahha" pointing at us. at which point since we had already paid the bill, umm we ran!!!!!!! it was such a good night....apart from the whole "allergy incident" but even that....after we realised she wasn't gonna die on us was kinda funny!!! cos her lips looked like shed had collagen implants...lol. anyway...i phoned her this morning and she's all back to normal so its ok!!

umm....step aerobics tonight and i cant back out this week....i have my curry to work off!!!!

2005-04-01T13:41:00.000+01:00

mood: yippideee do da.....yippideee yay....
listening to: take that greatest hits....roflmao...ahhahahhaahh (i just d/l it for a laugh..hee hee)

ok so i'm in a weirdo mood today. ive been wrking last few days. went in this morning and was doing 9-11 and then i have to do 4-6.30 but i was supposed to be doing tomorrow as well and just found out that it was a mistake and i have tomorrow off....so thats why im yippidee do da-ing!!!! im working next two saturdays tho..... :'-(

so i'm trying to kep up with posting on a xanga as well as a blog...haha its kinda fun bt there ain't enough hours in the day!!! i only signed back on to my xanga so i could post replies on other peoples then i decided that it looked stupid with only one post so i've kinda posted a bit more on there.....kinda just copying my posts from here tho..lol.

so my plans for weekend...tomorrow im gonna get up (NO WORK!!!!) and tehn watch hanson on TOTP saturday. then i need to go to the shops to buy my little cousin a present cos i have her engagement party at night! its so unfair...first zac now my little cousin...people younger than me shouldnt be getting engaged..lol!!! then i think after i'm gonna go back to hers with some other people and come back on sunday morning. then i'm gonna get up in time to watch popworld (hanson are on it) and then on sunday night i'm going out for dinner with a couple of friends (think we're gonna go for an indian) then we're gonna go to the cinema! and i'll try and convince them that they really want to go to "walkabout" for a drink cos im almost 100% sure nathan will be working..lol

anyway...mum just phoned to say shes going to pick up the kids on her way home from work so i guess we're babysitting again today...at least i escape for a couple of hrs to go to work...lol they're good fun actually!!! anyway..later

2005-03-29T13:39:00.000+01:00

ok...so here i am on the best night of my life!!!!!!!!!! i honestly have never been happier than i was that night.....and look......zac is squeezing my shoulders...hehehe

2005-03-29T11:59:00.000+01:00

ok so here are some concert pics from last thursday. i took quite a few myself but as i was reporter and my photos are property of h.net i'm not allowed to post them. my friend queued from like 2pm tho and managed to get down the front beside me so she also had some good pics (and a better camera than i had) so she let me scan some of her photos in. dont shout at me for tagging them . i figured that if im stealing her photos its the least i can do!!!!! i will post my M&G photo once i find out if i am allowed to or not. in the meantime, enjoy. (i have 2 sets of 36 photos from my friend so there are lots..i might scan a couple more in but this is just so u get the general idea!!)

please leave some comments!!! i like getting comments....lol

2005-03-29T11:56:00.000+01:00

play that guitar, ike!!!!

2005-03-29T11:44:00.000+01:00

TOO MUCH ROCK!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

2005-03-29T11:43:00.001+01:00

"broken angel"

2005-03-29T11:43:00.000+01:00

look at the stomach!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

2005-03-29T11:42:00.000+01:00

yummmmm!!!!!

2005-03-29T00:18:00.000+01:00

just since i'm in an american hi-fi mood.....i thought we'd have an american hi-fi pic.

2005-03-28T23:04:00.000+01:00

hahah ok so i just had a conversation with stacy jones from american hi-fi!!!! (while doing a little street teaming..lol) heres how it went:

Lesley: hello???
*** Waiting for American Hi-Fi to connect***
American Hi-Fi's IC window is open
American Hi-Fi: hi
Lesley: how are you doing???
Lesley: i was just wondering...is the new album gonna be released over in UK at all???
Lesley: it sounds great
American Hi-Fi: thanks, yeah, it will be out, we are not sure when yet
Lesley: kl kl.....so i know ive prob e-mailed u this (a few times) but when are we getting to see you again??? i miss u guys
American Hi-Fi: hopefully in the fall we are talking about a tour with bowling for soup in se-oct
Lesley: that will be amazing...i'll def be there then...thanx. hmm just a random question....
Lesley: so i was reporter for the hanson gig in glasgow on thurday night, and it was pretty amazing..have any of u guys heard their new stuff. just owndered what u thought
American Hi-Fi: havent heard, but i know those guys are talented
Lesley: yeah..it was a good show. u should chk it out..its good. anyway thanx for replying. i wasnt sureif u would...and i look forward to seeing u guys when u get back over here!!! les, xx
American Hi-Fi: cool les, see you soon!! stacy
*** American Hi-Fi's IC window is closed

he he....that just made my night!!!! i love stacy he's so cool. and he always e-mails me back when i e-mail him...and now he just answered my IM...hehehehe those guys rock. ive met him a couple of times at concerts and hes always so sweet and willing to chat/drink with fans..lol i cant wait till they're back!!!

2005-03-25T20:11:00.000Z

Mood: OMG!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Listening to: Hanson, hanson and more hanson

omg......i had the BEST day of my life yesterday. so we arrived at the academy at about 3 and i met a few of the other M&G girls. then at about half 4 we went to find one of the security guards who had no idea there was a meet and greet. so he got the tour manager who said that it would be at least another hour and just to wait there. so just after that we could hear some drums and then tay started singing crazy beautiful....it was the soundcheck. so we basically sat with our ears to the door listening to it all. and everytime someone came out the door we got hit on the head by the door!!! lol so we went in at about quarter to 6 and zac shook my hand first (yay) and then the first group of M&G people chatted to them and i took the photo. then when they were changing over it was just me and them and tay came over to speak to me. then the second group did their stuff. (oh and isaac put on a "see you jimmy" hat that someone had brought....its a strange scottish gift shop thing...like a tartan hat with ginger hair attached...i cant describe but u might know wot i mean. and he kept doing all these scottish accent impersonations...it was funny!) so then i did the interview...and they were all so nice, got my photo taken with them and got cd covers signed for me and my friends. then we had to go back outside but we got a queue jump so we got in first.

the support act, Farrah, were good.....but hanson were amazing!!!!!! i cant post any of my pics cos they're hanson.net but i'll maybe try and scan in a couple of my friends pics!!!! there were no camera rules and u were allowed to take as many photos as u wanted!!

setlist:

Optimistic
Dancing in the Wind
Minute Without You
Strong Enough to Break
Look at You
Broken Angel – Zac solo
Call Me – Isaac solo
Ain’t No Sunshine
Underneath
Every Word I Say
Penny and Me
You Never Know
Hey
Crazy Beautiful
Mmmbop
Where’s the Love
Lost Without Each Other
Long Way to the Top

Encore – If Only

afterwards...i got a tour t-shirt, necklace and poster from the merchandise. then when we got outside tay was signing stuff (think we'd missed zac and ike) and he signed my friends t-shirt.

today i went up early to get my non-digital photos developed and then i've spent most of the day writing up my report and e-mailing my pics to h.net. i cant believe that its over and i'll never get an opportunity like it again!!!!

2005-03-24T01:01:00.000Z

mood: way too excited
listening to: all my hanson songs in one go!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

ok so in about 18 hours time....i'm gonna be talking to hanson!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! OMG! i still can't believe i'm actually gonna get to meet them. hehehehe i dont really know what i'm gonna ask cos i have some ideas but i have no idea what was asked in dublin last night so i'll just need to apologise if i double up on any questions. i have nothing organised...cant remember where i put my tickets....cant remember where i put the e-mails i printed out. i have my camera but i dont have batteries (i'm sure there's some somewhere in the house) i'm sooo unorganised. i'll sort it all in the morning!!

so rax is home for 2 weeks. going to "walkabout" on saturday night with louisa and raakhi...and maybe emma if she can get her butt thru to cumbernauld...lol well ok she'll come if her washing machine gets delivered on time. sarah and her friends will also be there for her 18th i think...so it should be a good night.....oh and the hot barman will most likely be working!!!! saw him on tuesday when i was shopping but i didnt speak to him or anything. he is just so yummy!!!!

anyway i'm gonna go get some sleep so i'm on top form for the hanson gig tomorrow. later, x

2005-03-24T00:55:00.000Z

How cute and adorable is this pic!!!!!!!

2005-03-24T00:54:00.000Z

PILLOW FIGHT!!!!!!!!!!

2005-03-23T12:31:00.000Z

CHECK THIS OUT

http://www.hyfntrak.com/americanhifi/AFF14186/

its a preview of american hi-fi's new album. just now i think its only available in america....but hopefully....just hopefully they'll be back over in the UK soon!!!!!!!!!!!!

2005-03-20T11:25:00.000Z

hey

ok i stole this from hannes xanga, and i think she got it from annie...so um thanks some1 for the survey.

NuMbEr .. :
of time you've been in love? umm i say twice .. but in reality probably never
of girls you have kissed? umm prob all my friends in a girly way but not like properly
of boys you have kissed? eugh......if i say i dont know does that make me sound bad....i like having fun..i dont know. its well in double figures anyway
people you would classify as trust your life with type of friends? 1....i dont tend to trust anyone other than myself
of times your name has appeared in a newspaper? quite a few...like in the local paper for school stuff and sports stuff
of scars on your body? i have 1 where i split my chin open (falling off a skateboard when i was little), one where i split my head open, one where i split my eye open when i was a kid, umm one on my forehead wheree my friend hit me with a bit of metal by mistake when we were young...um and one on my leg where i cut it in a jacuzzi??? oh and one where i jammed my finger in the door......i was the most accident prone kid...i still am
of things in your past you regret? a lot of things...too much to mention

DO YOU THINK YOU ARE:
pretty? i can be...depends
funny? funny strange....yeah
hot? i wouldnt say so
friendly? when i'm not being a bitch :-)
ugly?right now i have a spot....aaaaaaahhhhh
loveable? apparently not...but really i am!!!!!!
caring? yes
sweet? again...yes when i'm not being a bitch...lol
dorky? yeah, but thats a good thing

FAVORITE:
actor/actress: umm....ben affleck before he got fat!!!!!!!! and i like jake gyllenhaal (or however u spell it)
least favorite day: wednesday...no idea why
flower: lily
jello flavor: strawberry....and whipped with evaporated milk
jewelry: all my bracelets

PERSON WHO LAST:
slept in your bed: me
saw you cry: no1....i dont really cry ... is that wrong...or i dont in front of people anyway.
sent you an email: my phone company..it was my bill!!!!! yagh

HAVE YOU EVER:
said i love you and meant it? no ...never
went out in public in pjs? lots of times...hahha i always just wander outside in my pjs....esp on holiday..lol
kept a secret from everyone? ummm..yes i probably have
been to new york? no
to california? no

RaNdOm ThInGs
last cigarrete: i don't smoke
last cry: i dunno
last book read: starter for 10 by david nicholl
last food consumed: toast on peanut butter
last phone call: my friend louisa last night
last tv show: the music channel on tv
last thing in your past you regret? i have lots...too many to write
last shoes worn: my v v cool red diesel trainers
last cd played: REM
last thing written: does this count???
last word spoken: said bye to my mum when she left for church this morning
last sleep: last night...but i got woken up by birds fighting on my roof at half7 on a sunday morning!!!!!! thats 3 days in a row now....they really have to disappear
last sexual fantasy: ummmm.....maybe i'll not answer this one
last ice cream eaten: vanilla..last week with strawberries
last time wanting to die:hahha ummm...last night prob..right now it seems to be all the time....read my other posts..as i said life sucks...but i'd never actually do it so dont worry.

2005-03-19T19:45:00.000Z

ok...if i can't have zac...i want this man!!!!!!!! i loooovvvvvveeeeeeee him!!!!!!!!!!!

2005-03-18T15:24:00.000Z

I made a Quiz for you! Take my Quiz! and then Check out the Scoreboard!

2005-03-18T01:04:00.000Z

WOOOO HOOOO!!!!!!!!!!

u'll never guess what. ok so apart form the fact that i'm going to see hanson play at carling academy in 6 days!!!!! i signed on h.net a couple of days ago now and i had an e-mail saying i had been chosen to be reporter for the gig. so basically i get to meet hanson, do a quick interview with a couple of questions, get stuff signed....and then i get to take photos from the start of the gig, so i get to be right at the front...in front of the barrier!!

the funniest part is it has started some stupid comments over on h.net, basically saying that "some people got reporter when they have only just joined and they're not even known in the community" what the fuck does that mean???!!?! i think people have to seriously grow up. these things are picked mainly at random..it says so... and im so so so grateful that i got picked to do it. but these people are just too funny. i wasnt gonna reply and i didnt for all of a day then i had to say something....i did but i just defended myself and didnt say anything too bad...lol

so now i have all these problems...what am i going to ask them.....what am i going to wear.....what am i going to take to get signed...what if my camera mucks up (the M&G people would hate me forever)....what if i just dreamt that i replied to that e-mail and i didnt really and i get it taken off me??? aaaagggghhhhhhhhhhh ok i think i'm calm now!!!! lol ok cya

2005-03-14T15:41:00.000Z

mood: grrrrrr.....(do not read this thread....i may be in a "feeling sorry for myself" mood)
listening to: the hits (crap music channel...with no LWEO!!!)

hey...ok so i'm actually doing 2 posts within a day for a change!!!! ummm...i dont really have a lot to say. not in the happiest mood today.....or for like the last week but i'm sure that will all change once i get to go see hanson next week. i'm totally stressing over the job thing...and i'm also kinda stressing over like family things that i'm sure only exist in my head cos noone else seems bothered...y do i always have to get so stressed out by stuff!!! i hate this..i never used to be like this, i wanna go back to being young again where nothing matters and u dont care what people think and u dont care what other people think. y does everything have to change? if we could just stay totally care-free for life it would be great. right now i've spent the whole day sitting in the house doing nothing, cos i'm not working and every1 else i know is today. also its cold and horrible outside and i really didnt want to leave the house. i'm sure there must be some really simple reason for all this like time of the month or something but i'm sure that doesnt make me feel like this for so long. i need to do something. and to make everything so much better, the only 2 guys that i really really like in the world....one is taken (and i'm sure his g/f knows i like him but oh well) and the other doesnt know i exist!!!!!! (and might also be taken...i have no idea about him). i dont know what to do!?!?!?! its not too much to ask that i get to stay at home near my family and friends and have one person in the world who actually loves me for me...with no hidden motives or anything. i didnt realise i wasnt allowed to have either - this SUCKS!!! now i got to go and get ready and go to step aerobics....and my whole get fit plan is failing cos instead of losing 3 kg i put on 1!!! so now i got 4kg to lose....and i need to hide all the chocolate in my house!! anyway apart from that...smile and have fun...its a GREAT day today!!

2005-03-13T13:11:00.001Z

another brazil pic

2005-03-13T13:11:00.000Z

recent pic of the guys in brazil!!

2005-03-13T13:10:00.000Z

the guys at king tuts in november, last time i saw them......only 11 days to go!!!!!!!!!!!

2005-03-13T12:50:00.000Z

mood: ok i guess
listening to: stereophonics - dakota

hmmm ok so i have a possible job offer in the offering. i dont know tho. one of the jobs i applied for (in carnoustie...east coast near dundee) well the guy phoned me back yesterday...im not really sure why it was a strange phonecall. he basically phoned back to say that he was going to see someone else about the job on thursday but if that doesnt work out then he wants to see me???? so basically he phoned to say i was his second choice...gee thanks. nah anyway the job sounds ok apart from the fact i would have to do every second night on call!!!! but apparently its really quiet usually. i dunno, it does mean moving over to the other side of the country but its prob only a couple of hours drive away and i guess then i could come home every second weekend. i'd miss everyone tho! like all my friends are here and my bro and sis-in-law are just moving back. i dunno. anyway i dont have an interview yet but he's phoning on friday!!

mum and dad are out seeing stef and gillian and the kids today but i'm being a lazy bum and staying at home to watch the rugby. its the scotland v wales game today...and we're sooooo gonna lost by about 50 points is my guess but hey we're the only team who can stop wales winning the grand slam...i think they've already won the 6 nations but we could stop them doing the whole lot!! yeah well we'll lose anyway

was out seeing gillian last week to give her a bit of a hand and some company. she was in hospital last week cos they thought she was leaking the fluid from round the baby but they scanned her and everything still seems to be ok just now. i cant believe she only has 8 weeks left!!! its like no time at all! the scan picture was really cute tho!

i dont know what to think about the job....i need to get a full time job but its not exactly what i wanted. but then i think just cos i'm stressing out about it all that i'll never find the exact job that i want....and i know where i'm working just now i realy enjoy what i've got to do and everything but it was only ever temporary and i dont want to like overstay my welcome..u know?? i dunno but i guess if i do move out then the first thing i need to do is get myself a laptop cos if i have no internet i'd die. the only good thing i can see is that its right on the coast with a beach!!! i'll write again on friday and say what happened!

2005-03-13T12:40:00.000Z

i love the "hair peace" thing!!! they look hot there!!

2005-03-06T15:15:00.000Z

mood: a happy little bunny....but i have the sorest stomach in the world!!!
listening to: G4 ...ugh!!

cool so its mothers day today...got my mum the G4 album (they are a band that were second on the x factor this yr (kinda like pop idol.american idol think with simon cowell, sharon osbourne, louis walsh) and choccies. its ok but they are like an opera group who sing like recent songs (like radiohead creep and REM everybody hurts) but theres only so much i can take!!

so was out at walkabout last night and the hot barman was working (he's so beautiful!!!) i wasn't really chatting to him tho....just said hi! ugh i was so so drunk at the end of the night and then we had to wait for an hour in the freezing cold for a taxi. i was still shivering when i got home and into bed..i swear to god i almost had hypothermia!!! i hate staying so far from town!! so didnt get to bed till almost 5 then had to get up really early this morning to give my mum her mothers day gifts adnmy dad made her breakfast (cos i was in no state too...soooo tired!!!) so now i'm just like uuuughhhhhhh!!!!

also got my hair cut on friday....its a lot shorter cos it was WAY WAY too long before....now its just to my shoulders. it looks better. and i got my nails done on saturday morning..got a french manicure so they looked quite good (and apparently as the night went on i was insistent on showing every random person my nails) anyway!!! so i looked good anyway....but there are no nice boys in the world EVER!!!!!!!!! (oh except the sexy sexy barman who is hot as anything and i LOVVEEEEE him but i doubt anything will ever happen there!!!)

oh yeah and i have the sorest stomach ever!!! as part of my get fit thing...i've started using the sit-up bench and i did too many so now i'm paying!!!! i cant cough...i cant sneeze...i cant laugh....I CAN'T HOLD IN MY STOMACH!!!!...i can't take deep breaths.......this so isnt worth it. it should wear off by tomorrow i hope so i can do more cos now i lay down on the bench and was like OMG I CAN'T GET UP and had to slide off backwards on to my head. anyway....i'm off

2005-03-03T20:10:00.000Z

mood: aaaaaaaaaaagggggggghhhhhhhhhhhhhhh i'm soooooo happy!!!!!!!!
listening to: capital fm

ok so ur never ever gonna believe what just happened to me tonight. this may have been the luckiest most amazing night!!! ok so my brother wanted to go shopping tonight cos its late night shopping and when he goes shopping he always requires my shopaholic expertise!!! so i met him after work and we went down to this shop "Cult"....its a clothes shop but its kinda cool, sells like a mix of alternative/skateboardy stuff and some other stuff. well i was just wandering around the guys section helping stu look for some tops and stuff. then i decided i'd leave him to it and check out the girls clothes....so i walked up and just as got to the other side of the shop I WALKED RIGHT INTO NATHAN....THE HOT HOT HOT BARMAN!!!!!!!!! (who apparently works in cult as well) and i was like oh god he wont remember me will he...its like 2 weeks ago and i hardly spoke to him (and also i looked like crap cos i was just wrapped up against the cold and like just dressed for going shopping!!!!!!!) and he just smiled at me and was like "hey" so i just said hi and was like shit shit shit ..think of something to say. and he was like "oh i saw u and i was like i know that girl..where do i know her from..and then i was like oh i know where!!" and just laughed..and i suddenly remembered last time i spoke to him i was v v drunk!!!! so anyway i just spoke to him for a bit and he was asking how my week had been and stuff and i told him we would be going to walkabout on saturday night so i'd see him then!!!!

but then the worst bit.....my brother was trying on a couple of tops and was taking the longest time ever known to man to try on 2 t-shirts!!!! so i just had to wander the clothes section....and i kept meeting his eye totally by accident and i could have killed my bro!!!! i was totally gonna play it cool and instead it was starting to look like i was hanging around stalking him!!!!! i wish i'd had more to say to him but then u always think that when u finish talking to a guy u like...i always wish i could go back and do it all again.

he was still so so so hot!!!!!!! when he's at work in the bar he usually just wears jeans and the bar top but he was wearing like a really cool hoody and about 3 tops from wot i could see..hahaha and i was like OMG YOU ARE SO FUCKING HOT!!!!!!!!!!!!! now i cant wait till saturday. i'm getting my hair cut tomorrow and i'm getting my nails done on saturday morning so i'll look good!!! ahahhahaha. but i think i'll play it cool...like i'll go to get a drink at first and make sure its him that serves me but i'll just say hi and get my drink and then go to the dance floor rather than stay at the bar to chat to him when he has a spare sec like i ended up doing last time!! i'll make him come to ME!!! anyway i'll post a pic when i get my hair cut and post on sunday and say how saturday went!!!! later!!

2005-03-03T20:00:00.000Z

loving the bodywarmer/gilet thing!!

2005-03-03T19:59:00.000Z

ah the famous painting clip from the road to albertane!!!!

2005-03-03T19:58:00.000Z

awww what a little cutie!!

2005-02-28T22:52:00.000Z

mood: tired and sore......exercise sucks!!!
listening to: embrace - gravity

ugh...i just got back from step aerobics a couple of hrs ago!!! i really have to stop being so energetic during the class...i really pay for it when i get home. my legs are in agony!!!!!!!!! oh well at least i'm sticking to my health plan...its not having the desired effect i've put on like 1 kg instead of losing 3!!!!! that sucks!! maybe its just turning my fat to muscle and that weighs more does it not?!?!? anyway...i dont really need to lose weight i just want to lose a little bit so i dont have a stomach overhang in my jeans :-p

oh so louisa got me a voucher to get a manicure and french polish for my birthday. so i'm going to use it this saturday...and she's gonna come and get something done as well. then we're gonna get all dressed up (well as dressed up as i get....jeans and a nice top and prob boots that leave me crippled by the end of the night!!!) and we're gonna go to walkabout again...so i really hope i will see nathan again!!!!!! it should be a really fun night....although i'm sure he thinks i was just a silly drunk idiot from the last time i spoke to him..ah well. did i mention he was hot!!!! hotter than the hottest thing u can ever think off. like think of ur dream guy...the guy who has everything u look for in a guy and thats wot he is to me....except he doesnt know it! ah how i LOVE life...given my crap track record with relationships i'm sure its not too much to ask that i get one nice relationship where 1) the guy isnt a dick, 2) he's not after one thing, 3) it lasts longer than like a week before i get bored and want out...i swear i have something wrong with me....lol

anyways..i'm out. cya xx

2005-02-27T23:36:00.000Z

yeah zac...thats attractive!!!!

2005-02-24T11:55:00.000Z

what do u think i should use on ii.com....the old sig i had made for me?

2005-02-24T11:51:00.000Z

or the new one i made myself...this is what i have on just now??

2005-02-22T20:15:00.000Z

mood: eech...i dunno happy and mad and good mood and bad
listening to: good charlotte live at brixton academy

cool so yesterday was my birthday as u may have gathered...didnt do too much cos i'd already celebrated with my friends on saturday and got my prezzies on sunday..lol so got some dvds (good charlotte one^^ yeah) umm jewellery, clothes, money...the usual. yesterday went into glasgow went to lunch with my friend fran to tiger tiger and went shopping - got a really nice top then go home to find out that where the security tag was, they'd left a hole!!! so had to go back in today to swap it (also managed to get dad to buy me some clinique stuff and got a free box with a compact, lipstick, mascara, perfume, cleanser, moisturiser..v v cool!!)

ummm then i went to step last night and had such a laugh...we really need to start taking it seriously....its just so funny. i just find it so natural to do most of the stuff but there are so many people in my class who just can't move there hands and feet at the same time....u can't help but laugh!!!! then when i got home...mum and dad had got lots of nibbles, like crisps and celery and carrot sticks with dip and peanuts...stuff like that. it was nice.

oh heard i didnt get one of the edinburgh jobs today....i only have 2 more applications to hear from so i think i'm gonna have to apply to some in england now..... :-( i really really odn't wanna move that far but at least i can go for a few months then move back i suppose!! anyway i'm not gonna go into that again cos last time i just depressed myself....and since i have atub of haagen dazs in the freezer and i'm trying to lose weight......not a good idea!! so i'm just gonna think happy thoughts :-) :-) i just find it hard sometimes. hmm oh well work tomorrow so that should be fun fun fun!! ha! cya

2005-02-22T20:10:00.000Z

tays braces crack me up...hes just so cool!

2005-02-22T20:08:00.000Z

look at zacs lil baby ponytail!!!

2005-02-21T23:57:00.000Z

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME
HAPPY BIRTHDAY DEAR LESLEY
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME!!!!!!

(its too late to be bothered posting any birthday stories....i'll tell 2moro!!)

2005-02-20T12:10:00.000Z

mood: tired....and sore head.....but in such a good mood!!!
listening to: nothing....i got a sore head

so i had the most amazing night ever last night.....it was so much fun. first of all nearly didnt make it...i had to get the bus at 6.45 to get in in time....and i was waiting on my dad to get me money and drop me off at the bus stop.....so first i was almost late then i made it for the bus on time...went to get on and realised i had no change and they dont give any (and there was no way i was gonna give him a £20 note) so we couldt get the bus so we got another bus that took u to the train station who gave change then he conned us out about 50p which was so funny cos we're just that stupid!!! anyway we got the train in and all was well. went to di maggios for diner and for starters between us had nachos, bruschetta and garlic bread. then i had a creamy pasta dish with salmon......v v nice. then we went nextdoor to the social for drinks but it was really busy and hard to get served. a few of friends that had come were working the next day so they had to leave at about half 11. so me and louisa walked up to the australian bar/club walkabout....which is the most amazing place in the workd...and also i am in love with one of the barmen. :-) so we stayed there till about 3...(and the sad person that i am made sure that every time we went to the bar...out of all the people serving, i made sure i got the hot australian guy)

oh yeah so this guy.....hes kinda short...maybe about 5'8 or so...dark spiky hair, kinda spiked at the sides and a bit of a mohawk shape going on at the top......he has the most gorgeous dreamy blue eyes......hes quite tanned......australian.....amazing kinda pnky clothes.....and he has a really amazing kinda chiselled looking jawline. he is just like the man of my dreams....but i'd never spoken to him cos theyre always run off their feet working.

so near the end of the night...this other guy who works there but wasnt last night....was giving louisa chat (but we know this guy has a girlfriend...who was there btw!!!!...anyway he was trying to get us to stay behind after closing.....and me being the drunk forward person that i was....somehow...i cant remember wot i said but basically he got the gist about me liking the barman. so he was like oh...kl and ran off to see him and i was just like omg what did i just say!!!!!!! so anyway hot barman is called nathan and he is v v sweet and i was chatting to him just as they were closing up but he was still having to clear up which took like an hr or so. and the other guy was still trying to get us to stay behind but at that point louisa freaked out and was like...no lesley i wanna just go.....AAAAGHHHHHHH .. so yeah the nice friend that i am i had to leave then so we could go home...but at least now i've spoken tohim so i can go "chat" again next time we're in (which will prob be nxt wk!!!!)

oh yeah then we couldnt get a taxi home....i missed the first one we called cos i didnt hear where we'd to go to be picked up!!! then he wouldnt give us another one. there are only 3 taxi firms i can call, one wont give me any taxis any more and the other one hardly have any cabs. (and u can get black cabs around...like not private ones but they cost a fortune) so after about 4 begging phonecalls to the first ones (and 1 HOUR of freezing my ass off in the middle of glasgow at 4 in the morning getting horrible drunk guys try and chat to us) they eventually sent us a cab and we got home.

but now all i can think about is nathan and how much i wanna go back there nxt week!!!!!! ahhahha hes jsut so cute and handsome and he was kinda shy which was really sweet but he was a bit like "i know im pretty and i know u like me" kinda way which i also love....omg hes just so perfect...i want him so bad!!!!

2005-02-20T12:00:00.000Z

old....

2005-02-20T11:59:00.000Z

.....and new

2005-02-20T11:58:00.000Z

ahhhh the TTMON yellow boots times :-)

2005-02-19T13:43:00.000Z

mood: all is calm again
listening to: maroon 5

yeah so sorry about my little outburst there....all is calm again as i said. i figured that if i didnt get it then it wasnt meant for me, and that the job for me is out there somewhere i just have to try harder to find it. i think even if i have to move away, its not necessarily a bad thing. maybe its what i need just now and then once i have some more experience i can apply for stuff up here again.

so i'm just kinda getting ready for going out tonight. i'm gonna go and make sure i have a really good night...i'm all fake tanned and i've chosen my outfit...and all i have left to do is my make-up (oh and do something with my hair which i have left to dry au naturale and umm....yeah thats not a good idea with my hair...so that needs to be straightened.) apart from that, i'm quite looking forward to it now!!! it should be good and i will be a good girl and not get drunk and i wil behave myself....i promise!!! ok well i'll post how it went tomorrow! cya, x

2005-02-18T13:49:00.000Z

tays hair is just so perfect in this pic...just nice!

2005-02-18T12:33:00.000Z

mood:ugh^%$%$%% everything about life and the world sucks...its so fucking annoying!!!!

umm so yeah.......everything kinda sucks right now......i hate how some people just go through life and get everything they want without even trying and take away from people who can try their best and maybe want stuff so much more and just nothing ever happens the way u want!!!!i hope i havent screwed everything up.....umm i didnt get the job that i really really wanted so now it looks like i have no chance of getting to stay at home...i dont know how long i can just go on waiting to get a job near here, i might have to move out of scotland and that just sucks big time!!!!!!!!!!! i only have a couple more applications to hear from but i doubt i'm gonna get them...everything sucks right now. wots the point in sending a letter saying i was perfectly suitable for the job but they just couldn't interview every1....thats of no use. it'd be better if u just said i was shit and u didnt want to give me the job..it means the same to me! i hate having to just work part time where basically they're giving me a job until i get a full time one but i kinda feel like i'm outstaying my welcome and althought they need the work done and they're glad of the help...i still feel like i shouldnt be there any more and i really want to get out of there and start working.....ok i know if i get a job elsewhere i can always keep applying near home and eventually move back but i'm just in a shit place right now that i dont wanna move away somewhere on my own where i dont know anyone. and to make everything worse i just got a letter this morning saying i need to pay £250 to stay registered so i can work!!!!!!!! how the hell am i supposed to pay that off when i dont fucking work!!!!!! i only do a couple of days a week and i still need to live and i have a fuck off credit bill to pay as well and i already owe my brother £100 for t in the park tickets which i'm now thinking was a big mistake cos i just have no money...ugh. then to make it worse i have to go out on saturday for my birthday with the very people who are pissing me off by getting everything they want...and i know i should be happy for them but i just can't be....i know im a horrible friend and a horrible person for thinking like that but i really dont care about anything right now. so now i have to go out and smile and lie and say everything is fine and "have a good time" when really id rather be anywhere else. yeah so apart from all that lifes great!!!!!!

2005-02-17T01:44:00.000Z

if looks could kill!!!!

2005-02-17T01:43:00.000Z

wow....oh man....just look at them!!

2005-02-17T01:16:00.000Z

hey. god so today i managed to drag myself out of bed, thinking ugh i gotta work this afternoon. then i come downstairs and am busy "foruming" when i get a call to say that it was really quiet at work so i could take the afternoon off.....and i was like "YYYYYYAAAAAAAAAAYYYYYY!!!!!!!!" u know dancing round the house and stuff. So i phoned back at about 2 jsut to chk it hadnt gotten any busier and i spoke to a different receptionist and she said that no i was just to come in EVEN THO I ONLY HAD 1 APPOINTMENT AT 20 PAST 6 I WAS TO BE IN AT 4!!!!!!!!!! cos apparently last time i took the afternoon off, they got into trouble for telling me not to come in,c os...wait for it...apparently it was unfair to me, if i was told i was working certain days i should get to work them......like i'm gonna complain at getting a day off!!!!!!!!!!! i specialise in sitting around doing nothing!!!!!!! so yup i had to go into work and i actually had more appointments by the time i got there so i was kept busy.

anyway, so yeah guess what!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I'm going to T in the Park!!!!!!

so far the line up is Green Day, Keane, Foo Fighters, the Killers, the Streets, Razorlight, Audioslave, umm charlie from busted's new band (dunno their name they're on one of the smaller stages i think),ok so i cant think who else....but its gonna be amazing!!!!!!!! stu txt me first to ask if id buy him 2 weekend camping tickets but i couldn't get my card to work (probcos i have no money..ahahhahaha) so i got his card details to buy his...but he took pity on me cos i said i really really wanted to go but couldnt afford it so he said if i wanted to go hed lend me the money for the ticket!!!!! so i put my ticket and emmas on his card also..... hehehe. so yeah...i'm going to t in the park....we're weak tho so we're not doing the whole camping thing...we're gonna go back to emmas flat to sleep overnight.lol last time we went (2 yrs ago i think) we got burnt to a crisp so i kinda hope the weathers as good this time...it will suck so much if it pours....whoever came up with the idea of an open air festival thing in scotland was mad.....really!!!!!

2005-02-13T18:48:00.000Z

me, louisa and raakhi at new yrs in edinburgh. this was at raakhis friends flat before the party.

2005-02-13T18:47:00.000Z

me and my friend louisa

2005-02-13T18:46:00.000Z

this is us up at the top of calton hill in edinburgh. there were fireworks up there and u could see over the castle and the street party. (note the little plastic cup..its full of lethal punch. hahahha)

2005-02-13T18:45:00.001Z

awwww the pretty fireworks

2005-02-13T18:45:00.000Z

yeah....so this one is later on!! dont ask what i'm doing . i think its called posing

2005-02-13T10:19:00.000Z

mood: exhausted (having 2 kids for the weekend kinda does that to u)
listening to: i don't like mondays - boomtown rats

yeah so we're babysitting my brothers kids for the weekend which basically involved me running round mad in a ball pond....i am so exhausted. i know i really want to have kids but i don't know if i could handle it for more than a day...ahahah! they are really cute tho. i think i've read jack and the beanstalk about 25 times since yesterday - so much fun!!! (or maybe not)

oh guess what......i had my first ever cup of coffee last night!!!!!!!!!! my new months resolution this month was to learn to like coffee. like u know when ur out...i really want to be able to "go for a coffee" with my friends and stuff. "going for a cup of tea" doesnt really have the same effect. it makes me sound like an old lady!! its bad enough that i've been knitting...hahahahaha. oh i finished my scarf!!!! i'll need ot post a pic of me wearing it....the only problem is i used this really expensive, really really soft wool so when u put it off,its so soft and comfortable u cant take it off!!!!!!!!!!

oh yeah so the coffee, i just heated up milk and and added coffee and lots of sugar to it......yum yum. it was actually quite nice....i'm sure i'll manage to like it by the end of the month...i dont know if i'll like the actual stuff tho. hmmm. anyway gotta get back to babysitting...my little nephew keeps hitting the keyboard and somehow getting in to the computer control panel...i have no idea how he does it!!!! yeah so i don't really have anything interesting to say, so i'm out!!! cya

2005-02-11T15:11:00.000Z

SCREEN CAPS FROM THE MAKING OF TTA

"oooowwww this hurts, never let any1 do this to you"

2005-02-11T15:07:00.000Z

"can't u see my bulging pectorals. they're so....shrimpy"

2005-02-11T15:05:00.000Z

tay: "this is my lifeline...the black coffee..aahhhh"

2005-02-11T01:21:00.000Z

mood: oooohhhhhhhhhhhmmmmmmmmmmmm!!!!

yeah so went to yoga for the first time tonight and it was really really strange. i basically paid for some really strange woman to try and get us to do weird stretches which i couldnt do, and almost kill me cos we were trying to do breathing exercises and she was like "ok so start in some mountain position ???wtf??? and inhale........................................" but by the time she was saying to exhale i was seeing stars??? i swear no1 waits that long between breaths its just not normal. oh then we got to do this really kl thing where we basically did almost headstands against another person (picture 2 people, heads on ground, backs against each other, feet on floor) ok that bit was fun!!! then we lay down with our eyes shut for about ten minutes with really irritating music playing in the background (i was like hello??? i'm paying for this) and the mats were so uncomfortable and then we got into lotus position, or my attempt and she was like "think these thoughts.... my body is my temple, my brain is .... (i cant remember the rest)" then it was "now after three we'll all chant ohm...1..2..3...ooooooohhhhhhhmmmmmmmmmmmm" i have never been to a stranger thing in all my life. it was like some weird cult thing.

going back next wk tho...lol

2005-02-11T01:13:00.000Z

yeah, this is a photo of me in the mornings i think!!

2005-02-10T11:00:00.000Z

how hot is this. tay on drums, zac singing I Want You To Want Me!!!

2005-02-10T10:42:00.000Z

Mood: bored
Listening to: Dream Girl

ugh not to be disloyal to my country or anything but why because prince charles has decided to marry camilla do all my good morning tv programmes have to be cancelled?????? instead we have constant news so they can bring us updates as the plans are announced...who cares!!!!!! i guess i have no option but to sit and watch this shit on the telly. cya

2005-02-10T10:40:00.001Z

oh just to be different....ike on keyboard??

2005-02-10T10:40:00.000Z

tay on gee-tar

2005-02-10T10:39:00.000Z

just some pics of the guys playing in preparation for my concert!!!!!!!!!!!!

2005-02-10T01:04:00.000Z

Mood: confused
Listening to : Need You Now - Zac Hanson

hmmmmmmm.....the strangest thing just happened, i was looking throught my folder of hanson songs looking for the interview i just downloaded and suddenly i find i have a copy of zac singing need you now????? at no point in my life did i download this song so i have no idea where it came from????? i'm so confused. anyway its a really really sweet song. the lyrics are just soo cute

Need You Now

Big brown eyes watch me as I sleep
Long dark hair that washes over me
Like a ray of sunlight
Warms me as I wake

Cos I need you now
But nothing ever goes the right way
Got to live life day by day
Hearts will bind you
There to remind you of where you stay

Freckled nose, nudge me as I sleep
A heart of gold that holds me as I dream
Tucked away in silence
Wake me when you come

Cos I need you now
But nothing ever goes the right way
Got to live life day by day
Hearts will bind you
there to remind you of where you stay

I'll never see you home
Cos then I'd sleep alone
Each morning as I wake
The sun is always brighter when you stay

it's very zac!!!!!!! its cute. OMG even better..just got a movie clip of zac sinign I Want You To Want Me while Tay is playing drums....but i cant get the screen cap of it for some reason.....grrrr but anyway it is so so so so HOT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

anyway apart from my random hanson clips which keep appearing in my hard drive.....not been up to too much. attempting to plan my birthday night on 19th but its kinda depressing me. i hate birthdays. i dunno why but i hate having like this whole night for me and having to entertain where u cant just fade into the background. anyway plan so far is to go to an italian restaurant for dinner then go for drinks after. then i think i'm gonna make everyone go to walkabout, which is this australian bar/club thing which has THE worlds HOTTEST barmen....i swear. but a lot of my friends think its too studenty and they're sooo above that now cos its been all of what 6 months since we were students....hmm oh well "its my party and i'll cry if i want to" i like it and if its gonna have to be my night i might as well enjoy it. dunno who's all going. only 2 so far (cos thats all i asked) but i text a load of people tonight at like half past midnight so that should piss them off to start with...ahhahah so will find out tomorrow how many are coming and then i gotta try and book a table! had a shit day at work today as well just to add to the fun. it was sooo busy and i felt like i'd gone back about 6 months. like sometimes i really like what i do and then sometimes like today it just stresses me out. it was so busy and i had some difficult cases which i had to ask for advice on and i hate having to do that cos i just feel like such a retard. like the guys are really kl about it but sometimes i feel like i've not learnt anything and that i am so shit at what i do and i should just find some dull as hell 9-5 job that requires no thought, no processing in my brain which is full of so much crap i cant even begin to think!!!!!!!!!!!!!! UGGGGGGGHHHHHHHHH LIFE SUCKS RIGHT NOW!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

2005-02-08T20:27:00.000Z

zac: woohoo look at me!!!!!!
tay: oh look i'm walking the tightrope .. really!

2005-02-06T15:32:00.000Z

WOOOOOOOOOOOOO HOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!!!!!!!!!!!!
This might be the best day ever in my life........8 yrs we wait and wait and wait with no sign of any hanson in this country!!!!!!!then november last year tehy came and played one of the most sensational concerts i've ever been to.........well now they're back.... and I'm going !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
march 24th Carling Academy, Glasgow...oh yeah baby!!!!!!!

i cant wait!!!!!!! I actually went online and booked tix for me, my friend emma and her sister sarah and i have no idea if emma can make it!!!!!!!! i'm sure regardless of what she's doing that night she will be coming to see the three most gorgeous men ever to walk the earth!!!!!!!!!

AAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!! i cant believe i'm actually going to see them for a second time!!!!!!!!!!!!!

2005-02-06T15:24:00.000Z

doing a little conga i thinks

2005-02-06T15:20:00.000Z

ike dancing on never mind the buzzcocks....ignore the hairy monster next to him please

2005-02-05T16:07:00.000Z

hey, so whats up......nothing much!!!! was working this morning...but wasnt actually that bad. still not heard anything bout jobs and it suck. i was planning on doing my room up and i have like all these ideas for it but i dont wanna do that then move out in a couple of months...so idk...i just wish i knew wot was going on and i knew wot was happening. i really wanted to go over to LA in august and my aunt would pay for me till i had it but i dont want to go until i know i have a job and am able to pay it and i dunno if i got a new job if i'd get time off?????

my b-day in 3 wks so planning a big night out on 19th....dinner, drinks, club me thinks so will need to make sure lots of people can come!!!!! dunno wot i want tho. typical me!!!!!!!

oh got broadband yesterday so apart from the fact our internet is now a thousand times faster and i can now dl songs really quickly.....mum can get off our backs about blocking up the fone line!!!!!!!!!!

so....gonna go get more chinese takeaway cos mum and dad are out at the ballet tonight and neither me nor my bro can be bothered cooking so...oh well there goes my healthy eating plan ... and chicken chow mein...here i come. going out later tonight with louisa but not sure where...think we're getting the bus into town at bout half 8 and plan on going to walkabout and firewater and prob then to the garage as always!!!!!!! so i expect to get v v drunk and umm... be in bed all day tomorrow with a v sore head no doubt!!!!!!!! oh and hopefully bump into nice men along the way tho.

2005-02-04T20:24:00.000Z

...why tay why???

2005-02-04T20:23:00.000Z

ike on totp

2005-02-04T20:22:00.000Z

screen caps from TOTP tonight

2005-02-03T10:57:00.000Z

he's so cute and small!!!!!!!!!!

2005-02-03T10:56:00.000Z

"I DONT do pot NOR do i promote it.. its just really comfy and i love o see the looks on ppls faces when they see it" - taylor hanson